I just wrote the quirkiest application for a study abroad program in Florence, Italy. I hope they pick me to go. Only 35 students get to go. I was going to fill out the Oxford program but I don't think I really want to go there. My theory in life is that if I don't want to fill out the application, then I shouldn't push myself to apply.
It's not that I'm lazy. I mean, I worked really hard to make this exchange happen. I know how to write these essays. But if I don't want to write a complicated essay, it's probably not the program for me. Just like transferring here--I'm not pursuing it with passion so what's the point? If I absolutely am not in love with the program, then what's the point?
I don't really want to live in England, either (no offense to the English!). I just have no inherent connection to the land. I've never really dreamed about living there. With Italy, I feel like there is something. Probably because I am half Italian and am interested in the culture and the language. This is not to say I only want to visit countries where I'm from (it would be a very short list of 3!), but, at least at first, I'd rather stick to ones I feel passionate about.
Same with Amsterdam--my school has an exchange there but I've never wanted to go there. Same with France. I think my last 2 years of French education kind of killed my love for the language. Thanks Bishop Hoban High School!
My best use for French lately--translating graffiti on desks. And random psychology quotes.
At least it's good for something.